G. Dep, who was arrested Wednesday (Dec. 15) after walking into Manhattan's 25th Precinct and confessing to the murder of John Henkel 17 years ago, admits that he came forth with the startling news because he wanted to make amends with a higher being.

"I'm just trying to get right with God," the former Bad Boy Records signee said while being interviewed by the 'New York Post' in jail.

After the 'Special Delivery' rapper made his confession, police officers informed him of news that he had wondered about since Oct. 19, 1993, when Henkel was shot: the victim had indeed died.

"I was surprised - for some reason, I really didn't think that he died," Dep revealed. "When they told me, I was like, 'Oh, I'm not going home after this.' Since he owned up to the crime, Dep, born Trevell Coleman, was officially charged with murder. Manhattan District Attorney's Office spokesperson Erin Duggan said Dep faces life in prison.

Dep admitted guilt drove him to walk into the police station earlier this week because the tragic secret "weighed on me." Despite doing right by the law with a confession, his family members were against his decision to come forward.

"I told my mom and my girlfriend that I wanted to confess, and they both told me to leave it in the past," he said. "[My girlfriend] is pretty peeved."

As a result of his actions, Dep must now face the fact that he will miss out on witnessing his three children grow up. Yet, living without a guilty conscious now allows him to possibly experience far more positive days to come.

"I started to wonder if all the bad things that happened to me in my life were karma for what I did... you start to think 'My happiness is because of someone else's sadness.' I thought that if I turned myself in, it might give me closure," Dep stated.

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