Mariah Carey Admits Life ‘Was a Mess’ Before Marriage
On the heels of her recent album release, Mariah Carey opened up about her marriage to Nick Cannon and her desire to have children. Carey put to rest rumors that she is already pregnant but noted that she and her husband, of one year, want children but have yet to decide which coast to raise them on. "Definitely, we want a family... but don't think I'm moving to LA," she said. The newlyweds currently own homes in both New York and Los Angeles.
According to Cannon, the goal is to have two children, but for Carey it's all about what they can manage. "Of course, we'd be happy with one [child]. I want to be able to manage the right amount of attention. We are so busy -- if you have six kids running around, no one gets what they need. Kids need a lot of attention."
The songbird candidly chronicled how marrying Cannon changed her perception on life. "Honestly, I never thought I'd live this long," she said. "I always thought that I wouldn't be here at this point. I was thinking, 'Okay, I've got another year of my life left. This has got to be the end of it.' Finally, he [Nick] was like, 'Stop talking like that.'
"I have always been grateful for everything I had, but my personal life was a mess. So many artists just exist for their careers and then burn out quickly."
Growing up bi-racial, Carey also admitted that she was insecure about her looks. "Being half-black, half-white, I felt weird, I didn't look like anybody," she said. "My friends were all different from me. No one knew how to fix my hair. My facial features stood out and I know we [bi-racial people] all say that but even though I've grown since, some of those things still remain with me."
Carey's latest album 'Memoirs of an Imperfect Angel,' is in stores now.